New garden friends

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Since getting a wildlife camera in the garden over a year ago, I’ve been amazed at what comes into our garden. At first, it was just birds and squirrels, the odd cat. Then foxes! The same foxes coming back, always doing something different, sometimes bringing a friend. Then, finally, badgers! They seem to have more of a set trail, and only come along once in a while for a number of nights, before disappearing again.

And finally, the culprits behind the mysteries of our disappearing plums has been discovered – deer! Somehow – I’m not quite sure how – they come all the way across the fields and deliberately into the back of our land and eat them all in one night. Bucks, normally – and sometimes more than one.

My best find of all was a polecat. I’ve never captured one since, and they’re so rare in this part of England.

Still waiting for hedgehogs and even just the common rabbit!

I realised also when I was in Sweden that I should have definitely taken my remote camera along. We saw a tree at sunset that had been freshly gnawed by beavers and in the morning at dawn we came back to find the tree toppled over. That would have been amazing to capture!

So, anyway. These photos below aren’t taken on a wildlife camera, but I’ll share those videos at some point. We don’t need a wildlife camera for this new friend, because she comes so close! Our new friend (definitely a lady, but we call her Mr Fox) comes to visit every evening. If there’s no scraps of food out for the birds, she’ll just sit by the trees and see if anything interesting appears.

 

Foxes in England

Foxes in England

Foxes in England

 

Sometimes she’ll even bring her baby along!

Foxes in England

Foxes in England

At night in Sweden

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An evening spent with the wildlife extraordinaires Wild Sweden. By foot the evening began by exploring the forests. They are devoid of human tracks or pathways, so we fan out to leave little knowledge of our presence on the ground. Carefully we walked; the cloud heads of moss give way underfoot, all dreaming a soft autumnal green, a summer’s nightcap before nodding off into a hibernal slumber.

At first, as the evening stretched on and on, my hopes slipped away of seeing any wild animals. There has been a recent cold snap and so the forests in the past few days have been oddly quiet, even the birds holding their voices during the day. Would we see any moose? But of course – we did.

I love their great bulbous noises most of all; solemn as knights, they feel half elephantine. And we see a young roe buck too, who has no interest in us at all. We expect to see one cow, maybe two, a bull if we were lucky – but we see eleven in an hour alone, bulls and cows and calves. They seem at the edge of all ends of the forests, lingering on the edges of the fields, lurking slowly from where we had been standing only earlier. It was almost unnerving. In the growing fog that night, I drive home very slowly.

 

Moose Sweden

Moose Sweden

Moose Sweden

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Moose Sweden

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Wild camping in Cornwall

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Wild Camping

There is so much I adore about camping, and wild camping especially. Finding a little spot away from anyone, or anything of human consequence. Preparing a plot of ground I will call my home for the night. Setting up camp at sunrest, and waking up in the first blue light. It all means slow progress, but important progress, all the things that matter most when away from the rest of the world. Running water is sparse; washing takes time and has a different quality. Food isn’t a rushed affair, but a slow amble, an appreciation of flavours that comes from the combination of sore grass-stained legs and fresh air.

Back on the road, we’re on our way to the south west of England. In the boot, there’s some essential pieces: spare clothes, socks and shoes, a facecloth, a new tent that has so far only known blistering July days, an old sleeping bag as thin as a rag, a sketchpad for my ideas, and a bottle of rose wine for company. The most important things only!

On the way to just one spot on England’s wonderful heritage coast, I have chance to stop at one of my favourite locations en route. Dartmoor, a land of meteorological surprises. In a place where I’ve seen snow in June, I don’t expect much, but it delights and surprises me yet again with an astonishment of shining blue skies, only disrupted by a hurtling train of white cloud. My friend who is coming camping with me (and who has lived around the world in considerably hotter places) probably doesn’t believe me when I say it’s the most beautiful day I’ve ever seen on the moor. The winds are strong, a ripping currant across the tors, but that’s always how it is here.

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Devon is left behind us with the turn of a steering wheel, and Cornwall arrives. Twists and turns into closed roads and diversions with no end, Vivian’s reverse gear in near constant use, the Cornish agriculture finally drops behind and we reach a small bay, sheltered in the cradle of the cliffs. Only a few people are here, all dogs and coats and smiles. We sling our gear over our backs and trek up to the head of the coastline. The first ten minutes, always the hardest; the next ten, getting better, getting into the rhythm; and then the pace is set.

At the head of the cliffs, the sea at an 145-angle all around us, I can tell that we’ll see a sunset and a sunrise at the exact same spot. It will be beautiful! To make the trek easier, we find a sleeping point and throw our tent, sleeping bags and wine under some concealed bushes. Exploring along the cliffs and the coastline becomes so much faster.

If I could remember every detail of our journey, the way the sunlight toyed on gentle gorse bushes, the touch of the breeze on our raised chins, I would have many peaceful memories for my mind to wander in colder and darker days. Instead, I just remember happiness, something that will remain as warm in nostalgic pining as it was in that moment. This – this is what I needed. Fear falls away from me with every step, and all I need, again, is the press of my feet to grass and the sound of the sea beckoning at one ear. We walk for a long time. Clouds cover the main spectacle, but that’s okay – instead we enjoyed the pre-sunset, or the curious phenomena – there’s probably a name for it? – of the pink of sunset, reflected on the opposite side of the sky. The solemn night chorus is creeping tenderly closer, and heavy clouds frown.

We find our hidden sleeping bags in the quickening dark. Originally we planned to sleep in a part of the field out of the way of any late night or early morning dog walkers but hidden thistles block our path, so we settle on the nearest soft ground we can find, softened into a strange sleep by a disconcerting bass tone of soft rain echoing all around. Why do I ever want to sleep anywhere but in a tent’s cocoon, warm enough to lull me into uninterrupted sleep, yet pressed against the earth, under the arc of the night sky, the wind and the raindrops reminding me I’m home, wherever I am?

Wild Camping

Wild Camping

Wild Camping

The Forever-Days

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Sunset in England

 

Summer Solstice, 2017

At thirty minutes to midnight, I remember I’ve left something outside in the car. I place the door ajar and across the dew-touched grass I walk out and into the night, looking up from my bare feet only to get my bearings. There is more light than I expected. To my astonishment, I realise it’s not artificial, but real. Across the tips of the hills, the edges of the sunset are still curling around like a cat to a darkened flame. I check my watch, once, then again. There shouldn’t be any sunlight, not now, not this far south of the Arctic circle, surely? It is five days before the summer solstice, and it seems I still have a lot to learn from the country I live.

I slowly awaken that I’ve been standing there for a long time, in a loose shirt and bed shorts, clutching a cup of freshly brewed camomile tea that’s quickly losing its warmth to the cooler air. A summer breeze is tasting, but not biting, my bare legs. The finale of the sunset is brimming, brimming, a yellow liquid poised on the edge of a cup that is the horizon, and if tilted too far, I would fall with it below it for two, maybe three hours of quietly retreating blue and navy, never quite black. Then I’d be back. Something is trembling on the edge of my skin, but it’s not goosebumps; it’s a quivering excitement.

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This summer solstice has been coupled with the most beautiful of Junes I have remembered in a long time. A lot of people have said to me something that’s absurd, but I’ve been feeling the same truth – ‘This year, the nights have felt longer. The nights seem to have been lighter until later.’ No wonder there is an acceptance that even as the summer holidays for many are beginning, it is already over.

When I was younger, like most natural phenomena, I didn’t pay much attention to the solstice. But it’s been different over the last three summers, where I’ve spent the tip of the season just outside of the Arctic Circle’s circumference. Slowly, slowly, I’ve been falling in love with the ‘forever-days’ that decline but never touch down, a sun that pokes gingerly to the horizon with a long silent stretch of indecision, before retreating back to the skies.

This year, it’s not just been the sheer luck of beautiful weather, but also a natural power I’m noticing. For the past months, I’ve felt a creative energy that left me scurrying and retreating with every spare second into notebooks and pens, a creativity energy that has been introspective rather than wanting to perform, inside the exploration of the self. Maybe, I wonder, I’m more in touch with myself, and so more in touch with the natural world. I ‘possess’ less time than ever, this year more than ever, but I am learning to spend it more wisely.

I’ve loved it so much, this year’s forever-days. Even the older I get, I find I am more nostalgic always about the summers past. I have these memories, recently, that are not very clear, but are more of a blurred moment, a sense more than a sight. The feeling of old school holidays where it felt like the weeks would last forever, where I had nowhere particular to be. This summer I have been committed, am still committed, to more sunsets, more peace, more breaking free of routine. Laughter in the sun, alone moments on the trail. Captured moments. Fragments of speech and art, rather than the whole text and picture. One day, not so soon, this will all be a nostalgia as well. This summer, I am finding, is a summer lived.

 

Sunset in Porto

Nature, everywhere I go

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Good evening to everyone, now from Portugal! It’s been a beautiful day in Porto, a city with a soft heart in the west of Portugal. Although as a baby I was brought up in Portugal, I have no memories of the country. So although I’m taking photos for a music festival over here, I was excited to grab a day to explore the city.

First day in the city, and we’re keen to explore as much of the city as we can before music festival mayhem sets in. We visit museums, churches and palaces galore, and I have a great time (and somehow it’s all remarkably cheap!). And then I’m looking through my photos at one point, and… what? All these exhibitions I’ve gone to, and all that’s on my memory card is… animals. And trees. Flowers. A view of the city, sure, but that’s because I can see mountains in the distance.

In fact, there’s no museums at all.

I start to think and puzzle over it. Maybe my perception is so veered to seeing the little living moments in everything?

Porto, Portugal

Porto, Portugal

Porto, Portugal

There’s this one moment I have from today, in a museum (a prison that’s been converted into a wonderful free photography museum, actually! I’d really recommend it to anyone going to Porto); I see a park through a window, and get really excited about going to there next. ‘Eh… but that’s just a few rows of hedges? What’s exciting about that?’ I’m not really listening because I’m already feeling energised by being among those smiling plants, all waving around me, tiny hands reaching up and growing…

 

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And then, as I’m walking along, I’m attracted to every natural spot, even if it’s tiny and surrounded by roads! Like this; a green roof on a shopping precinct. I love that they’ve allowed trees to grow on it. I love that it’s there. I’ve been thinking about whether or not it is really ‘nature’ or ‘natural’.  In one way, it’s no, even though I want it to be. I wanted the park to be the result of grass and trees deciding to gang up and create a little zone for themselves, despite all odds. I’d love a natural area of the city like this one, a green roof on a shopping precinct, to be a fought and reclaimed territory in the constant battle for land, by something greater and more unknowable than us.

I walked and walked and the thoughts kept going. In in a way, nature is all of those things, isn’t it? Leave the soil unattended and look away for a moment too long, and something will come and live there, and take root and make it its home. And as much as the cities and houses and shopping precincts are needed, still people made the decision, not to leave a grey roof, but to use that empty space to create a place of greenery and life. We continue to build yet relinquish. And so, nature continues to live on. Nature always wins, even if it grows in our imaginations first!

Porto, Portugal

All too soon, it was the end of my day exploring the city, or maybe I think I was exploring the spaces between the city. Walking up grassy verges to a cathedral and taking my shoes off for a moment to feel it tickle my toes. The river is such a shimmering mirage from high up, and I stopped to take a basking view over the river. These two little flowers sprouting between a roof’s tiles just captured my last thoughts from today. Nature wins not just because it creeps into our imagination and makes us design these beautiful hyperdensity spaces, or because we allow it a little bit of room in our parks and our gardens. It survives because it’s invincible. Wherever there’s oxygen and water and a bit of sunshine, something will grow or travel to be there. Just like we all would, just like we do. I felt so overjoyed to think of nature in this way. Always somewhere about to sprout and take wing even if I don’t know it yet. Always wherever it’s least expected.

“Progress means: humanity emerges from its spellbound state (…) by becoming aware of its own indigenousness to nature and by halting the mastery over nature through which nature continues its mastery” – Adorno

 

Porto, Portugal

Never perfect

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Every time I turned this leaf in a different direction in the light, it revealed even more beautiful detail. Sometimes it reflected so much light that it seemed washed out and weak; sometimes it was full of webs of detail. So many perceptions are possible!

There is nothing more reviving like a spring’s day – and increasingly feeling more and more like summer, although it seems to be slowly on its way in starts and stops like a struggling motor car. On a walk through a place where the living world is thriving – a small park, a river, a wild space – the smaller, slower lives are growing and breathing and living. All I can think of today are the complexities down there, where each leaf is different, each blade of grass. Some look perfect on the outside but most are just in some stage of being, a little stunted or frayed.

Sometimes, we get so afraid. And for what reason? What reason, skulking in the shadows of our minds and in the depths of insecurity, fills us with so much fear? We are inconsistent. Sometimes under pressure, we bend and bend and never falter, and sometimes, at the slightest nod of tension, we splinter in two. Our weaknesses are our strengths and our strengths are our weaknesses, because we are mighty and dynamic, full of pain and love we don’t want to admit and reveal. But even while our legs and our veins are clenched to the ground, our heads and minds are far in the clouds and dreaming of some new future, some better day. We are multidimensional, fractured, full of myriad detail and intricacy, and never, ever perfect. What a joy and a freedom that is – and a lifelong journey to learn to embrace it!

My own sea

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The past few weeks, a lot of my energy has been going into a new business I’ve been working on, and I’ve been taking on new responsibilities. Good ones, but difficult ones. It’s just a new journey, and new journeys are always hard to start. I’ve been feeling really tired. At first it was just bodily tiredness and general unavoidable exhaustion. Gradually, it became tiredness of the soul. I couldn’t figure out what it was, but it was just an underlying feeling that, although I was enjoying my new journey and my new interests, there was something missing. The further I went through time, the more I felt it, a strangeness, like I was slowly walking away from something.

During the time, I also had a difficult loss. Loss punctuates everything. Suddenly, there’s a full stop where there was once a tranquil path. A question mark appears where once there was an endless stream. Language shifts.  Words came out of my mouth that weren’t quite mine, thoughts grew where there weren’t thoughts before. The normal routes I took, I puzzled over, because I’d find myself reaching dead ends. I still do. Loss doesn’t really disappear. It has affected me, just as hard as I thought it would, if not much harder. The pain doesn’t stop, it just changes, creeping in with ways I didn’t previously expect. So it’s less of a journey and more of a fumble. Sometimes there’s good days, sometimes there’s bad days.

Hard work and loss, all at once. The best way to deal with it all, and in some ways the most punishing. I was getting up early, 4 AM, 5 AM, and sleeping late (and catching up on sleep and old routines, then starting it all again). But at the beginning and end of every day I walked a familiar path. I am so lucky that my career path right now is putting me in one of the most beautiful areas of the country, because every day I saw this same beautiful sight. A long sea, a circling coastline. In the mornings we’d look for seals in the water or coming up to the beach, and in the cloudless evenings everything would be bathed in an orange hue of just pure, melting bliss, rolling across the water to the far bays. Even on the cloudiest of days, the sea is undulating azure, impossibly blue. Pure joy, a moment of peace at the start and the end of the day.

A quick picture of the sea and where I've been every day

 

Slowly, slowly, I’ve realised the tiredness is because I’ve missed the old creative outlets of music and writing, the tides and the waves of what has always been most familiar to me. It’s obvious, really! I just haven’t been able to make time for them. No, that’s wrong. I have had time. I just thought I didn’t have time. I chose an extra half an hour sleep that I didn’t need over generating a new idea for my novel. I’d slide into the sofa and blank out watching a television show I’d never remember instead of working on chords or melodies for a new song. I was still productive, always productive in some way, but the more I leave behind the things that are the best for me, the more I get afraid to look at them again. As if looking away from a problem will make it disappear. And also, I thought I didn’t have the energy to choose healthy eating and exercise. Of course, those things only generate energy – the best kind of energy.

A friend said the other day she’s been thinking about creative energy in a similar way as money. I’ve been considering that wise thought of hers, and slowly extrapolating it. How I obtain and increase creative energy. How I spend it. The difference with money is that I can’t really save creative energy for another time. The universe gives me an allowance every day. I can increase the capacity for it (through being inspired, mindfulness, reconnection and healthy thinking) but I need to spend it wisely. Being connected to the world around me, to the dawn and evening chorus, revives me and brings me so much joy, and never lets me down.

It’s a quick picture for today, a quick piece of writing, because I just needed to express my feeling at refinding my own river again, my own sea, of imagination and development and creation. I walked for so long, that I thought I had lost my way, that I thought there was no point retracing my steps. Then just by luck, I came over the hill, and there it was, just where I had left it, always patiently waiting. Thanks for always being there. ❤🌍

Fidel Castro: The mourning days in Havana

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One of the blog posts I’ve been longing to write up is a reflection on some of the reactions to Fidel Castro passing away when I was in Cuba. Four months later, it seems a long time afterwards to write everything that has happened. But the weeks of editing it took me to go through my photos – hundreds taken just on one day of rallies, and trying to capture all the emotions and find the best moments! There is never an end to photo editing, I know now. It’s been a journey, not just to go to the country but to understand my thoughts and feelings since then. And also to understand where I want to go with writing and photography.

On the 13 November last year, I saw a cheap flight to Havana for the 24th November and – as is normal travel practice to me, and probably wildly infuriating to everyone around me! – booked it on the spur of the moment. I’m going to Cuba!

I arrived late on the 24th November and spent the night dancing salsa until the following morning in UK standards. 25th November I spent exploring the city and the beautiful Malecon, making and meeting friends, listening to music on the side streets and in restaurants – so many people invite me to dance with them that I joke I’ll be a salsa expert by the end of my time there.

Cuba in the first daysOff the plane into the gradually lowering sunset at Varadero. I had just switched my phone on to a work problem back at home, and thought ‘Why have I come here? It’s all falling apart back at home!’ But as soon as I felt the hot sun on my skin, I let go of any of my ‘adult worries’ of work. Traveling alone, I just started talking to people, introducing myself, finding out why they were here. Making mistakes, getting on the wrong bus… all of that!

Cuba in the first days My first morning in Havana coming across a ‘WIFI’ spot. I was graced with probably the best WiFi I had on that entire time in Cuba, and managed to sort out all work problems, and then put down my laptop, and think… right… where now?!

 

Cuba in the first daysLater on that same first full day, outside the Revolution Museum.

 

Then on my second morning in Cuba – 26th November – I wake up to find out Fidel Castro passed away during the night.

What follows is a collection of pictures from those first four days, 26th November  until the presidential rally on the 29th November. I find it hard to put into words those days, because for us travelers, for my friends and family asking at home and for readers, it was certainly an experience of sorts, but in a way a bit different from what people have been asking. In the same way that if a photographer came to the UK to capture the emotions of the ‘British people’ if something with a measurably monumental impact happened here – for example, if the Queen passed away –  I would feel a bit like an observed creature for my emotional reaction, I don’t want to liken what happened in Cuba to such a thing. As I’ve written about before, what struck me in a country I’ve heard to be described as ‘the only ongoing Communism regime in the world’, the home of classic cars, a totally different lifestyle, somewhere to visit ‘before it all changes and it’s all Westernised’ – is that it was nothing like I inflated in my head from everything I had heard before. Visiting the country made me humanise a country I perceived before as just an ideology. There was a lot I had to learn.

 

The morning of 26th November

There is a subtle change in the streets when I go out, and many people are talking quietly. It takes a couple of days before I start noticing the main effects of the mourning period – that there is no music or dancing, anywhere. It is still busy, at least in the morning – the tourist destinations like museums are closed, and the banks and the shops have to close in the afternoon, so there’s some frantic people going around  trying to sort their affairs before midday. The roads are really quiet. My friends and I visit a cigar factory and they’re told to make any purchases quickly, before they’re forced to close for 9 days. With tourist places closed, we’re told by a hotel doorman to pay a dollar to ‘come to the rooftop of the hotel, it’s the only place in Havana that’s open today’ – the entrepreneurial spirit remains strong, even in the face of adversity!

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Photo taken by Emmanuel Abreu: http://eabreuvisuals.com/
Emmanuel managed to take a much better photo than me of visiting the ‘cigar factory!’ For more fantastic pictures he took on this trip, check out his website: http://eabreuvisuals.com/

27th November

It’s the same atmosphere on the 27th November, which is a Sunday – the city is still coming to terms with everything, organising rallies and plans that won’t take place until the beginning of the week, so we go to a quiet Malecon for most of the day.

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Near the Malecon

Near the Malecon

I don’t see the ‘normal’ Malecon’ until a week and a half later – there are none of the romantic lovers or groups of musicians I’ve been told to expect. Hardly any people here, it’s just us and the sea.

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28th November

We join the rallies today, and where the city has been quiet for a long weekend, suddenly everyone is here. The queues to ‘see’ Fidel Castro, a room with pictures of him alongside his cremated remains, take me ten or fifteen minutes to briskly walk to the end of it just to see the length of it. Large yellow buses are pulling up full of employees from closed factories and work places, who are being brought to the Revolution Square. In the distance, I can see school groups in their neat uniforms walking to the square. There’s many groups of young people there . There is such a mixed atmosphere – tired crowds resting under the trees to escape a very hot sun – people my age taking photos on cell phones or otherwise part of the rallying groups supporting Fidel. One newspaper stands is waiting for the papers for the day, with people patiently waiting for hours until long gone midday for the first papers to come into print.

 

Moments in Cuba - roadsThe streets are full of yellow buses from all across the city and the whole of Cuba. Some, I find out, are coming all the way from Santiago de Cuba. After the presidential rally at 11 PM the next day, we walk past the same buses, filling up to take them back there.

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Young people at the Revolution Square in Havana

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The day suddenly becomes livelier, alive with colours, chanting and flag waving!

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The end of the queue at the Revolution Square. Above is a long standing billboard: “The revolution is invincible”.

 

29th November

Today is the presidential rally, with thousands of Cubans coming to watch presidents from around the world paying their acknowledgements to Fidel Castro.

It’s a long day for me. I arrive early afternoon to be near the front of everything taking place. Although I’ve brought litres of water, it’s not enough, and I’m exhausted by the early evening, before it’s even started. I feel like a wilting flower compared to the strength of the Cuban people around me, who are able to stay standing the entire time, without food or water, applauding throughout.

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Early arrivals hide from the strength of the sun in the only place they can – in the shade of a pole.

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Moments in Cuba - presidential rallyThe crowds are just so great here, that I struggle to stand at this point, starting to feel unwell! But it’s difficult to sit or stand and there are just great amounts of people coming and going, trying to get to the front and trying to get  back because there’s too many people at the front.

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The speeches are a real mix. I don’t understand them all, but from what I can gather from basic Spanish, and from the ones that are spoken by English leaders, Cuba and Fidel Castro are of course held in high regard. It sounds like a mix of reverence and propangada, with the Americans described as tyrants of imperialism. People are getting tired by several speeches in but when Raul Castro comes on the stage, all of the people are shouting and applauding, and all the traces of tiredness disappears.

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Faces of Cuba

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This post is dedicated to the people of Cuba, whose lives I only caught a glimpse of during my travels in the country! This trip took place at the historic time of the passing of Fidel Castro, where I started to develop an amateur interest in portrait photography and capturing the emotions of the people I met there.

Faces of Cuba

This photo was taken on Revolution Square, two days after Fidel Castro passed away, and it was the first day of the rallies. There was a huge gathering of young people here, banners reading ‘Somos Fidel’ (We are Fidel), and chanting and shouting Cuban songs and anthems. Personally for me, getting to grips with photography, it was the first time I was challenged in a very long time on taking photos in a moving, vivid setting. There were journalists and photographers everywhere from all the big publications, because they had just managed to get into the country by this point, and this was I guess the first really public emotion of the day. As mentioned before, Emmanuel, a fantastic photographer who you should all check out and who was teaching me photography on this trip, was lending me his camera and I was just about getting to grips with it and learning how to change the settings, making myself get up close and personal to people to capture their emotions. This young man quickly captured my attention because he was so emotive and full of passion; I wasn’t sure if he was the leader of the group there but he was really a huge source of power and energy. Here’s just one photo of him from the numerous ones I have!

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Another photo at Vinales, several hours away from Havana. As soon as I found out about Vinales when I was researching Cuba, I wanted to go. The sounds of the city are instantly forgotten, replaced with the warm hum of a little town. These gentleman take a long time to get this machine up and working but eventually a final yank on the rope and it’s roaring.

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After an arduous wait for the first newspapers of the day to be printed (the papers were printed in black during the time of the mourning of Castro, instead of the normal red or blue).

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There are wildernesses left to find

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Last week, I was planning to explore the Lake District and the Pennines during a work trip I was taking to the north of England. But alas, unusually strong storms settled across the country. Instead I spent most of my time battling through winds and rain on the road between each location.

So we needed an alternative to our dreamy long walks we had been planning. On the day, we decided it would be best to just take a drive. I thought it would be a bit boring, just driving through the countryside when there were so many places to explore by foot – then I remembered how much I loved the long days of driving through Iceland, and thought, actually, this might be nicer than I expected.

We set off from the north of the Lake District for our little detour into the ‘interior’ of the national park. I had been to the Lake District a few times before; I’ve walked up Coniston and explored around Lake Windermere several times, so I thought I knew quite a lot about it and that it was a mostly ‘human’ affected location, not really any wildness about it at all. I was so wrong!

The drive started unsteadily over flooded roads through pretty countryside lanes, not unlike the depths of Devon, and I started seriously questioning my judgement and feeling very glad I had my good steady family car, which I always borrowed for drives (we nickname her ‘Vivian’), rather than a rental car that would take a few days to understand fully. She’s a little car, but I struggled pulling her fully into the sides of roads, so small they were on stretches.

And then suddenly we opened up onto a mountain pass. I shifted to a low gear and slowly headed down the road, creeping around the left side of the cliff. The mountains just broke apart  and collapsed into a long, low valley. And all around us – I didn’t know if it was caused by the rain, or a normal feature – were waterfalls, everywhere, on each turn we made. It was the same sheer green and waterfalls that astonished me in the south of Iceland, actually. Except in Iceland I had a nice, mostly flat road to admire the cliffs from afar, and here I was driving down them!

I exclaimed as we were driving up to this one waterfall near Buttermere – I found later it had the name, ‘Moss Force’. I just had to stop and see it properly. I opened the door and it almost flew off in my hands – I had underestimated the scale of the gales around me, as I was mostly sheltered in my little car by the banks I had been driving against, and the low speed I had been taking! Pretty much everything inside my car tried to blow itself out of the door, so after sorting everything out, I went to take a couple of quick pictures – not many, as I was freezing within seconds, otherwise I would have taken some time over them. The wind had changed by the time I returned to the car, and the same door I had so easily fallen out of was now a bit of a trial to get open, and in fact I was pushed out of the way by the wind and just fell over.

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I’m so happy I took this little venture out into the Lake District, even if it took all my patience to drive through it carefully and without flooding Vivian. It’s very easy to write off England as not having very much worth to see, compared to other places in the world. Fair enough – it’ll never be the same spectacular sights as other countries, and our mountains aren’t the highest, and our wildlife isn’t as diverse. But there is certainly something ‘wild’ left in the Lake District, even if it’s only on a rough and stormy day, even if it’s on a day where there’s no one else around.

Wilderness. Wildness. What is that? Always there is this debate on wilderness and whether there’s any wild spaces left in the world, let alone in Britain. These are formed by the ideas about different degrees of wilderness – what’s a real wilderness and what’s a wilderness experience? James Fenton writes a lot about this. He’s spoken about how it can be evaluated it by factors, such as the amount of people present, the climate, the size of the place, how many human artefacts are present. And if these all measure out in a certain way – if there’s rough weather and large expanse, or if there’s no one around and no presence of human activity – then a place can be described as ‘wild’. The more we try to be objective, the more we fall back into subjectivity. For example, the Lake District is notoriously not wild, because it’s gone through centuries of agriculture. So what about if we left it for fifty, a hundred years – would it be wild then? What if I came to the Lake District not knowing anything about the landscape and its history, and just assumed everything around me was purely ‘natural’ and unaltered (whatever that means)? What about the fact that every place in the world has probably felt the hand of humans in some way, directly or indirectly, and that so many species of plants, fruits, vegetables, flowers have been tempered by the hand of a human? Is a place ‘natural’, ‘wild’, ‘authentic’, just based on our knowledge or lack of knowledge of it?

So if a wilderness is subjective, then for me, a wilderness is somewhere where I feel ‘free’. It is somewhere I feel more alive, and not just in the way in which I find a new place, but in a lost and finding way, where I find something of myself I didn’t realise would be here, that I didn’t realise was missing until I found it. Maybe it’s under a mossy rock, or down the view of a valley, or in the temper of the winds across my skin. It’s a recollection of a sensation I think I lost before I ever knew what it was, or maybe a recollection of something passed down through generations, that I know by instinct rather than by memory. In that way, maybe a wilderness doesn’t always have to be a place that has been unchanged by humans, but more a place where humans themselves can be changed. And if so, then I’m sure there are many wildernesses left in our own countries and in our entire world, waiting not just to be discovered, but to be discovered in an entirely new way. Perhaps there is room for explorers, not to conquer new territories and discover new shores, but to create revolutions on how we view and care for the land that we’ve already found.

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